My cranial pudding is about to explode... "Duck and Cover!"

OK, so I am totally not feeling like I should. Or maybe I'm feeling how I'm supposed to, I don't know, and to be honest, I'm not in a really caring mood right now. Why's that? Stress. Stress stress stress stress stress....it sucks.

I swear, sometimes it feels like I have ADD or ADHD is hyperactive cousin. If anything, I feel so on edge it isn't funny. And I know it has to do with Feb 20. Why February 20? I don't know, except that it's the day my boyfriend is leaving for mexico, the weekend I was supposed to visit my sister in Lethbridge, the weekend I was supposed to start teaching sunday school, the weekend where I was to help out in the church nursery... so if I say yes to one thing, it's no to everything else. There's no way I win! There will always be three people I will have to let down and that really sucks. I hate making decisions and this has only put me under more stress. That dreaded "S" word.... stresses me out. ha.

So here I am, waiting for that day to pass, going day by day, wanting to get enough sleep but can't, therefore I have no motivation and that just makes me more stressed cuz there are things I should be doing. And what was with these past 8 weeks? I've really begun to hate mondays. That's when all my assignments, tests, or presentations had to happen. I have tried to put effort into this course, but i'm seriously running out of steam. Thank you Lord for giving me two weeks off. If I didn't have it, I think I would probably crash.

It's at times like these that when I pass a person on the street, I wonder, 'do they have as crazy a life as me? or are they care free???' For all of those people who don't have a lot of stresses, kudos to you. Seriously. I can't wait to be in your position.